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Check out this article about the Fifty Shades of Grey phenomena, including a list of organizations which strongly oppose this sick trend, and have implemented various means of helping women who have been sexually victimized.


Were you raised by a narcissist? Chances are you were if you suffered any form of childhood abuse. The Little Red Survivor website is filled with excellent articles examining the many faces of narcissism.


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Kate Is Rising has an excellent Survivors Resources page which directs you to numerous websites dealing with issues of abuse, healing and recovery. Please bear in mind that the information on these pages may be triggering.



There's lots of good stuff at the Dissociation Blog Showcase, including a list of 180 blogs dealing with some aspect of this disorder. 



On the Overcoming Sexual Abuse site there's an article entitled, "It's Not About You Mom" which I could have written myself. I bet many of my readers could say the same!








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System Restore

The bed sheets rustle.

You're an octopus of hands

here and there, and everywhere

I haven't been touched before.


You take me to a foreign country

crude in its customs.

The currency of my innocence is no good;

you smirk at it as if it were fool's gold,

though there's no denying

the telltale flush of your quickening desire.


Hostage to your navigations

I'm your own private stowaway

unwitting visitor to continents

for which I have no map, no passport

and no desire to visit.


I want to return home;


I want the used-to-be

before the never-again of it all,

want to set my brain, my spirit, my heart

to system restore,

to a time before . . .




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Reader Comments (5)

Wow. Just wow! Even though the words are horrifying, I had to read it several times. I love the idea of a system restore.

March 13, 2013 | Unregistered CommenterKali

Oh, this is just awesome!!! Some of your phrases are simply stunning, like recognizing yourself reflected in the eyes of a tiger you meet in the woods. Captivating. Haunting. Real.

-- SynthGirl

March 20, 2013 | Unregistered CommenterSynthGirl

Wouldn't we all like that option with life?

I realize I could have expanded this little poem but I was too tired to do so. It says what I meant to express, so I guess it's as long as it needs to be.

March 20, 2013 | Registered Commenterbeautifuldreamer

Hi there. The last 2 or 3 comments I left on your blog never showed up - including one yesterday. At first I thought you just didn't approve them - and that is okay -- but I just wanted to make sure... so this is a TEST comment, heehee.

March 21, 2013 | Unregistered CommenterSynthGirl

Hmm, I checked my comments and I don't see any you've left recently, aside from this one. One of those cyberspace mysteries!

March 21, 2013 | Registered Commenterbeautifuldreamer

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