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Check out this article about the Fifty Shades of Grey phenomena, including a list of organizations which strongly oppose this sick trend, and have implemented various means of helping women who have been sexually victimized.

 

Were you raised by a narcissist? Chances are you were if you suffered any form of childhood abuse. The Little Red Survivor website is filled with excellent articles examining the many faces of narcissism.

 

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Kate Is Rising has an excellent Survivors Resources page which directs you to numerous websites dealing with issues of abuse, healing and recovery. Please bear in mind that the information on these pages may be triggering.

 

 

There's lots of good stuff at the Dissociation Blog Showcase, including a list of 180 blogs dealing with some aspect of this disorder. 

 

 

On the Overcoming Sexual Abuse site there's an article entitled, "It's Not About You Mom" which I could have written myself. I bet many of my readers could say the same!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Wednesday
Apr242019

Blogging Again

And just like that, I'm blogging again.

 

Recently I was telling a friend that I often feel emotions that are unconnected with anything going on in my life. Sometimes a tsunami of despair plunges me into such a vast darkness that I don't expect to ever see the light of day again. Or a sorrow so deep it causes me to instantly begin weeping though I don't know what the tears are for. He suggested that my parts may be stuck back in my childhood home where no child was safe. Though I was diagnosed with DID over ten years ago I've never really gotten to know my system very well. I haven't wanted to. I haven't wanted to invest in the time and effort and pain I knew this would involve, and what would be required of me, so I shut myself off from my parts as best I could, hoping by doing so they would disappear or at least not bother me.

 

My friend's words hit me hard. They rattled me. Instantly my thoughts flew back to that suburban home where I was accosted by my stepfather every time I turned around, and left to flounder by a mother who didn't want to admit what she knew. And everything within me recoiled at the thought that my parts were living in perpetual fear, cringing at every sound, waiting always for the other shoe to drop and being afraid to even whisper for fear the stepfather would notice them and the cycle of abuse would begin all over again.

 

I've hoped to slink through the rest of my life not dealing with any of this because, quite frankly, I'm weary of it. But now it's time. Time to become acquainted with my unique selves and learn to value and nurture them. I can't understand let alone explain why I'm ready now when I so clearly wasn't before, I just know I am.

 

Already I feel stronger and more authentic just by making this one decision.

 

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